im terrified of being intimate again, it’s been two years. everytime I start seeing a man and sleep with them and feel a connection, they start pointing out my physical flaws while we are cuddling. sometimes it’s even disregarding the good times we had together. it makes me highly insecure and I feel awful. this has happened multiple times to me and I have a hard time advocating for myself so I used to let it slide everytime. eventually, I started hating my body and I can’t bring myself to even hold hands with someone now, even platonically. i have a history of being sexually abused too so that doesn’t help. i really miss having sex, it’s the one part of my life which used to make me feel like a human. sorry for the rant, didn’t know which subreddit to post this on and this one seemed appropriate lol.