So my husband admittedly has a kink about hearing about my past. I’ve been honest about how I used to act but I haven’t gone into detail because I am ashamed of how I used to behave.
Now, I didn’t just do normal early 20s college sleep around type stuff. I did full porno kind of stuff. I cheated on every boyfriend I ever had and often with people close to them from their friends, to their brothers and even their fathers on a few occasions. I’ve been with married men and teachers and cops and had sex just about everywhere and any way you can have it. I could go on a while.
I snapped out of this about 15 years ago, I went to therapy and focused on fixing myself before I even attempted to be with anyone again. I did that and met my husband 2 years after I quit sleeping around.
I fell in love with him from the start. I felt safe and loved. He was also pretty damn cute. I told him about my past in a similar way that I have here. Just broadly, not alot of detail. And he accepted it without flinching. But I did notice that he always wanted sex after I’d talk about my past. However he never pushed for more than I was comfortable sharing.
We have been married for 11 years now and we have 2 children. We are happy and have a vibrant sex life.
Recently however he has wanted me to go into more detail about my past and I am not sure how I feel about it. On one hand I am ashamed of it but on the other I am turned on by it. So I am leaning towards sharing some more detail and incorporating it into our love making but I would like to know if anyone else has gone down this road. Are there any pitfalls I may not be thinking of? I’m not afraid that I will want to go back to my old ways but I don’t want this to get out of hand. I enjoy having loving passionate sex and don’t want our bedroom to get too kinky. How should I approach this?