I have been in love with this guy for a few months now, i wake up thinking about him and i sleep thinking about him. We have been seeing each other for about 5 months after i made the first move. Whenever we meet we have a good time, we sleep together etc… Now i know that he does not want to have a serious relationship with me and i get the idea that im not that important to him. My text can be left of delivered for days, he doesn’t say that he wants us to be exclusive.
The only thing that’s giving me hope is the mixed signals he gives me, sometimes he acts jealous, i remember i posted a picture of a pretty restaurant view and he asked if i was on a date. With all that being said there is no actual progress in our relationship i wouldn’t even consider us dating and at this point i dont want to ask a direct question “what do you want from this? ” because i know that i dont have to be confused about the situation it’s clear if someone is serious about you after all we are adults im 27 and he is 31 we are not in high school.
Now during this time ive seen him twice with different girls and the last time i was in his house i saw a box of condoms in the trash and when i asked him he simply said that the box was empty in his drawer and he threw it out with no other explanation and i also didn’t ask more questions.
I went home absolutely heartbroken, since i finally realized that this is a waste of time and it cant get serious at all.
NOW the problem is that this situation has risen my insecurities since i don’t remember the last time someone really FOUGHT for me and it’s starting to fuck up with my self esteem and im starting to just forget the idea of dating all together since my mental health has reached rock bottom.
And at the same time there is absolutely no point in requesting explanations from his side since im bound to get hurt, i have accepted that it would never be more than what it is but i can’t just forget and i know in a moment of weakness i would text again and ask to see him.
(Sorry this is too long), my solution is to block him so i wouldn’t get the urge and as much as ik this would work i cant help but wonder if i do so will he notice and try to reach out.
This is the end of my rant, this has been killing me since February and it’s harder than any actual relationship i have been in.
If you guys have any advice, any insights it would help.