I feel there’s nobody willing to listen to me without judging. I can’t trust friends anymore, cause someone in the past made fun of me and devalued my opinions.
My mom is the only person that I’m sure that doesn’t judge me, but she has crippling depression and to not make her sink more in sadness I just gatekeep.
I’ve been to therapy for almost 2 years, switching like 3 therapists because I felt like they weren’t helpful. Honestly, I do not know if I could try again (and spend money) to meet a specialist, with the risk that it could be a scam.
I just wish I were be able to cry and vent to someone (obviously without hurting them), even on the web