I am not sure if I am just selfish or bad or idk….but I feel like I really suck at making friends especially because I don’t always reply right away to messages? Is that a bad thing to do I usually wait until I’m in a good space and can articulate myself I also feel like I was rly codependent in the past and I don’t want to get like super attached in the obsessive way with friends??? Like literally waiting for my phone to buzz and running to answer. I feel like this might upset people though idk… It’s not like personal I’m just scared but also overwhelmed….
Idk I get like this anxiety when they aren’t talking to me and then I wait and wait for their texts and I’m trying not to be like that anymore.
I don’t know I’m just worried I won’t be able to make friends….I feel lonely but I’m trying to be strong because I want to show up in a healthy way not just run to anyone.
Am I being a jerk? If I am how do I learn to interact with ppl without getting into the desperation attachment thing I keep feeling?