okay so i (18f) have been seeing this guy for just over a month now and i am super attracted to him emotionally and physically. anyways, there is this particular hat he wears every now and again and when i see him in this hat it makes me question my own ability to experience human attraction. i question if i am even capable of conceiving children. BUT, i just want to reinforce that it’s just the hat, because when he isn’t wearing the hat i genuinely stare at him with so much admiration and think about how he is the most gorgeous man to ever exist. the thing is, i don’t think this hat is just a phase because i’ve seen older images of him with the hat on and now i’m considering that it’s just part of his identity. i feel conflicted on what to do/say because
1. i am so shy
2. it feels bad because he is so good to me and tells me not to overthink what i wear
3. maybe the hat is part of his fashion identity or something and i don’t want to make him change for me
do you think the hat can be something i grow to love since it is just an accessory and i am incredibly attracted to him again the second he takes it off??? but i do want to say that i find myself subconsciously treating him differently when i meet him and the hat is on and it definitely affects my mood but i don’t really say anything (don’t kiss him, look at him less, go quiet). he doesn’t wear the hat all the time so would it be better if i just compliment him more when the hat is off??
TL;DR i don’t find the hat the guy i’m dating wears attractive.