The long story short, it’s almost a year and I still wasn’t able to find friends in the new class for variety of reasons. I am pretty immature and have absolutelly other worldviews and interessts in comparison to the other boys of my class, but I try to seek my bad behaviour traits. I am still have whole bunch of friends from my privious class and other places, who I spend a lot of time with, thus I don’t feel lonely, but it just feels wrong for not continuing to try making friends in a new class, because I feel like I am a jerk that thinks that they not deserve my time, what is false! I am also very closed person and often affraid of my classmates even though I spent already a year with them!
I understand that I need to do something similar to what other socially active people do, by asking them finally to invite me to thier off-school group in messanger and asking wether I can go out with them, but it’s really hard for me to do and after all it was already a year. I know that it’s only my anexiety that says me that I am not fitting well.