My (26m) relationship with my girlfriend (22f) feels toxic, feel trapped and guilt.
I’ve been with my girlfriend for over a year , we are living together now with my mom for the past few months. She is normally very sweet and we get along so well, she’s my best friend. But she has BPD. And it feels like she is emotionally controlling me, getting angry or going nonverbal whenever I mention the idea of talking to any of my friends. She gets insanely jealous at the drop of a hat, and can become very rude and act as though she hates me. I feel like I’m not living my actual life and im always walking on eggshells with her. I love her and want to make things work but she makes it so incredibly difficult and seemingly unsustainable. I’ve tried having discussions with her about this but it doesn’t seem to be anything she takes to heart. I want to be happy but I feel trapped. Any general or specific advice? I try to lift her up and inspire her with plans, going out, etc, but she struggles with mental health greatly. I feel stuck.
TL;DR my girlfriend with mental health struggles is making me have doubts and struggles of my own