Been married almost 20 years to my wife and have always tried to do right by my family. It’s been probably 18 months since we had sex. Tried and been trying counseling but I feel like I am there to pay the bills and nothing more. Never cheated on her as I don’t think it’s right. Maybe I don’t express that I feel like I am dying inside. I do love her and my two kids (11 and 8 yrs old). We both work and I do help out with the kids and house/chores stuff etc. However sometimes the smallest stupid thing can turn into an argument. Not saying it’s her fault but I never seek confrontation nor want it ever. Just don’t know how it could be this way when I feel like I have tried hard in this marriage. Over nights are out of the question kids too little and even date nights pretty non existent. I just Feel lost. I know there are a lot of jerks out there but I am trying to be the best I can for my entire family so any advice would be appreciated! Lost in Ohio!