what person has made you hurt the most?

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2. Possibly my grandmother who left me alone in the park when I was 6 and left me with horrible trauma after being abused because of that

3. Myself because my young self didn’t know yet how to love and embrace who I am and what I’m worth but I forgave myself because I know better now

4. My husband.

5. Myself. I’ve been depressed since 8th grade which was 11-12 years ago. I’ve been put on a 72 hour psychiatric hold (which didn’t help at all, just made me feel worse and hate myself) I’ve tried committing suicide countless times, cut myself numerous times. I’ve put my body through hell because I don’t know how to cope with my emotions. I’ve made myself believe that happiness is temporary and I’ll never be genuinely happy.

6. My friend. Rather, the death of my friend by suicide. Her death left a hole in my life that led me to near alcoholism. Doing better now

7. Meee

8. My dad used to hit me a lot, even when i was a teenager. One time he pulled my hair really bad.

   What’s hard is that he’s also my favorite person and i love him so much.

   So when i think of how he used to hit me, it hurts my heart a lot.

9. My brother and my grandma

   My brother because he bullied me a lot as a child while I was also bullied in high school, we were poor and my parents could only afford one computer that we had to share all the time, it was an old computer that was very slow sometimes and every time something was wrong with that computer, my brother always blamed me for it because I was a child and I’ve played a lot of games on the computer and that stupid fuck was dumb enough to believe that flash games made the computer slow, he also watched my internet history and I had no fucking privacy, every time I stand up for myself, my brother started managing with intimidation and threatening to beat me up, he has a girlfriend and I’m fearing he will beat the living shit out of her one day.

   And I hate my grandma too because she hated me because I was different than my other siblings, she was always mad at me for no reason and always praised my siblings and I have absolutely no memories of my grandma being mad at my siblings, then I decided to grow my hair long and she picked up a pair of scissors and threatened to cut it off because girls didn’t had long hair in the 1930’s.

   Dear brother and grandma, fuck you all, thanks to both of you I feel like I’m the black sheep of the family.

10. My college best friend, some may call it stupid but she started a rumor regarding my ex (he and I are friends now). Her betrayal made me loose almost 20 lbs in 2 weeks. It hurt so much cause I opened my home for her and helped her in so much. A friend would never backstab like she did. 😞

11. Parents.
    They refuse to speak to each other because everytime they do it ends up in a fight and use me as the messenger and blames me when shit doesn’t go their way. (I was 16-25 btw thinking I could fix shit when all it did was made me the bad guy)
    Made me suicidal as shit.

    At one point I just stopped being the family therapist and now I’m moving 5000miles away from all that shitshow.

    I invited none of my family to my wedding.

12. Parents. They are the ones I have the most strained relationship with and can only be around for short amounts of time to have somewhat of a healthy relationship/sense of boundary.

    Typical emotionally abusive and physically abusive parents.

13. My parents and mom’s parents mainly. I love my family a lot, don’t read me wrong.

    But my grandparents used to hit my cousins in front of me and my mom could swing from being a really loving, and good mom, to also being physically or emotionally abusive. I think the emotional abuse was worse because it stayed in my head longer and impacted my self esteem heavily. I didn’t feel safe or truly loved in some ways growing up, and I was scared of her/them. I had to do or say the right thing, or I’d lose all of their affection, and they could snap easily and without reason, going into sudden/unpredictable rage. Or say destructive things to me but then tell me the next day that they love me and only want what’s best for me. I was terrified to be myself with them. They’ve grown a lot and I love my mom regardless (her parents can kiss my ass, they’re violent pedophiles) but it has done so much to me as a person and it still hurts. I hate that I still feel crazy anytime I try to recognize or remember what happened growing up. I think my mom may have been struggling with a mental disorder, so I try to take it easy on her but it all still hurts.

14. My mom.

    We weren’t the best when I was a teen. I should have been in therapy. I wasn’t just lazy. I was sick.

    She is the reason I have anxiety still. Even though we’re a lot better now there are still things so ingrained in me that I can’t NOT do them or I feel like im being a burden.

    One day after she’d broken her back I was calmly defending one of my sisters husband’s because he was late getting the kids because of a blown tire. She screamed at me I was supposed to be on her side and she thought I loved her.

    Recently it was why did she let us rent in the house next door to her if I wasn’t around when she needed me and I don’t help enough.

    I know it’s the pain. This only ever happens when she’s in immense physical pain from a break or surgery.

    But it stings every time.

15. My mother

16. My mother. She pretty much tried to destroy me.

17. A few mean coworkers

18. probably myself

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