This isn't a fetish post or anything, and this is no offense to anyone. Not going to mention age but we are in our twenties. I am in a heterosexual relationship where we are unable to see each other most of the time, so sexy talk occurs frequently over the phone.
With a visit coming soon we have discussed many new things to try when we meet, which includes swallowing. I'm really turned off by semen and other bodily fluids. The one time I ever swallowed semen was not a good experience (request ignored when asked to not finish during oral sex) and I genuinely do not see myself getting over it. Even before that incident, just the smell was enough to make me cover my nose and gag anyway.
It's absolutely nobody's fault but my own mental block. Everything about it turns me off. Porn is ruined for me if there's a scene where someone finishes in a mouth. The color, the texture, the taste, the smell; I don't know how to get over this.
I know there are ways to make the taste better, but the "surprise" aspect is also scary for me. A warning wouldn't really quell this fear, and regardless of where it goes it won't be pleasant for me.
I really love him, and I enjoy oral sex despite this. He has expressed a very big interest in this and I would like to learn to get over it someday. Advice is appreciated.