I don't know if I am doing the right thing by writing this or not
But I am in a very difficult situation from a family point of view
I was left out, I don't feel loved and no one listens to me.
I've never taken serious even though I am 24 years old
Whatever I do, whether it is shopping or cooking, everything is criticized.
I can't do anything alone because I was dependent all these years and I feel like I can't do anything right by myself.
I got my license 3 years ago, even though my dad told me that driving is much better than my brother, who is 4 years younger than me, but 4 months after I got my license, my brother went to take the test and got his license. And from that time until now, the car is all in his hands, but he never once let me sit and tells me that you should go to more classes.
Even if I find a restaurant or a shop to buy clothes or anything, even if it's the best place, they completely ignore me, but if a friend or colleague introduces them the same place, they don't care and
They welcome it!
Literally killing my self-esteem and self-confidence.
I have panic attacks and social anxiety disorder.
Even now, I'm learning drawing, despite the talent I have, they ignore me and say that I can't get anywhere with this, and even though it was one of my goals, whenever they reach me and talk about it, they completely disappoint me and ask me to do something. I have no interest in it, just because I studied it, it's a shame.
I want to leave this house no matter what.
dead or alive
I got tired.
It may seem ridiculous and childish, I don't know what I said.
But this is only a very small corner of what can be said.
I'm even afraid to talk to them, because they behave in such a way that even I doubt whether I'm really right or not? Do I really have the right to be upset or not?
I don't know what to do…