Ok so a while back I started talking to someone, I had seen her photos and everything but never actually in real time. She is insanely good, like honestly I have a lot of fun talking to her and like mentally I am very attracted to her. Yesterday we did a Video call and I don’t know, its not like she looks bad its just I don’t know it honestly felt like I was disappointed. To clear my doubt, I talked to someone today who I know likes me and she is very beautiful but mentally I just couldn’t connect with her. And now I am confused. Is this because of all the porn I’ve watched? Is it because I always imagined my partner to be some hottie? Like she is a baddie in the literal sense and it is so sexy to me. But I don’t know. I am just heavily confused.
I am 23 and she is 21.