I'm an adult FTM who not so long ago started having sex, so everything is new and SCARY. I also have some anxiety problems, so it does not help.
In short, I had sex with this guy. He had a condom on when penetrating me, but we rubbed our genitals together without one. The thoughts about pregnancy or STIs were just so overwhelming that I barely enjoyed it. I read the whole internet trying to figure out if I'm “safe” or not. It sounds as if I am okay, but then I noticed some bruising on my pussy, which makes me doubt and panic. I did not let him finish on me or anywhere near my pussy. I actually told him to get off me after a few minutes of rubbing, but I'm so overwhelmed that I just want to cry thinking about it.
I asked him if he was infected, and he told me he was not, but I just can’t calm the f down.
I thought about getting PEP, but I don't live in the USA, and there is barely any information about it where i live, same thing with testing. (WHY CAN I JUST NOT GET IT IN A DRUG STORE???)
I'm just… Am I overthinking it? Or is the chance of getting the virus actually concerning?
Can I even do anything right now?