Questioning value and worth
I’m a 33F. Half Mexican and half white. I had 2 sons too young with an abusive partner and many years later fell in love with someone new and had 2 more children with him (30M)We are currently still in a relationship and building what I thought was a beautiful life together.
He recently confessed he had been unfaithful to me with several women but only one with intercourse which resulted in basically a 5 month affair… they weren’t “together” but hooked up over that time about 5/6 times..and flirted with the idea of “running away together” my partner, confessed this to me about a year after his last interaction with any infidelity.. he told me that the guilt was eating him alive and he was treating me awful as a result of pushing me away.
He since has been very open and honest with me about any questions that I’ve had and has asked for my forgiveness and told me he will do anything to make it work, it’s been about 3 to 4 months since I’ve known and I have seen a dramatic difference with how he’s trying to earn my trust back. I really love him and want to make this work, but I am seriously struggling with ever trusting him again. Regardless of our family and him trying, I’m seriously considering leaving him.
I’m a good woman. I’ve always supported him and I’ve remained faithful throughout the eight years. We’ve been in a relationship. I work out regularly, I’m very curvaceous/ slim thick and I’ve been told I’m “Vegas” beautiful. I’m funny, smart, hard working, have a high sex drive, I have self respect and conservative but also open minded.
I don’t ask for much, I don’t care how much money a man makes but would like him to be able to take care of himself at least.. All I ask for is the basic virtues.. honesty, loyalty, trust, respect..etc. I guess I’ve come on here to ask for advice but also after knowing all this, would a man be willing to love me knowing I have 4 kids? I consider myself a high value woman but after all this I’m really starting to question my worth..
TL;DR; As a high value woman who was recently cheated on, would another man want me after having 4 kids?