Ranting/Frustration
My ex made me loose my sex drive and I can’t get horny anymore.
My ex boyfriend was very vanilla while I’m a kinky girl. I wanted to try many things however my ex wasn’t into it and even when I tried to communicate with him my needs in bed he showed little to no interest in them.I even tried to encourage him to do certain things in bed that I’d like to try but he just did not care.
All he cared about was his pleasure and every time we had sex he’d just make sure that his needs are satisfied. Most of the time,I wouldn’t even be in the mood. Actually I was never in the mood at all,not even once. After he cums,sex is over and not even once did he even try to satisfy me.
I never had an orgasm or let alone get some pleasure during sex. It all revolved around him. I even told him that I needed to be satisfied as well but he barely tried, he convinced me and got me thinking that I’ve issues with myself. I tried to spice things up by using a sex toy but he hid it saying that his dick is enough and that I don’t need any toys. I literally had to beg him to allow me to use it on myself during sex.
Now for context both of us come from a traditional and conservative background so he doesn’t know much about sex,just the basics and whilst for me I read a lot of smut so I know a lot but this guy just ruined sex for me and now I just can’t get horny anymore. I hooked up with 2 people since the break up and even when they tried/initiated to do things I wanted to do in bed ,I just can’t get in the mood at all.
It’s been so long since I got horny and the last time I was truly ever horny was before I met my ex when I was single.