I am demi sexual and only want or think sexually about my bf. My bf how ever is not. He's very open about liking other people, thinking they're sexy, wanting to fuck them. I've expressed how much this hurt me. He even likes porn during sex and asks for it a lot. Which is 9 out of 10 times i just say yes. He said he just like watching the people do things, okay, fine. Just no pov. That was too personal to me. Today we were having sex and said he wanted to "stretch" the person on the screen and i broke. Knowing he looks at other people and wants to fuck them. Hurts. So fucking badly. I couldn't stop crying, i told him so many times how much it hurts and to just not tell me. He's said it so many times. I'm done, I don't want this. It hurts too much. I want to break up.. am i over reacting?? He says i should've told him, but i have. I didn't think i needed protect what he was gonna say and remind him beforehand…
Update, he's awake. I told him how i felt and about breaking up. He said he didn't want to, he loves me and wants to grow old together. He said the thing i did was also bad (i squeezed his dick after he came before breaking down crying) i apologized because i do genuinely feel bad about that, and he said sorry to. He then cuddled me and kissed my head. Hummed a song, while rubbing my back. He asked how i felt and i said confused. He said that was okay and kissed me. He asked for a brownie so i got him some, and he just spoke like nothing happened.. he has a birthday party in an hour. I think i was manipulated..?