Hi, I'm new to reddit and I would like some advices on how to proceed. I (31fm)have been dating my bf(29m)for almost 5 years. Just today, he told me that he gets "turned on" by looking at other girls for the past 6 months. His reason? He said he's sexually frustrated as I do not have a high sex drive like he does. I felt hurt and very depressed over this. He said he just wanted more sex and is frustrated that I can't give it to him.
A little background about me, I was molested multiple times at the age of 6 and thus, developed a very weird way of thinking about sex. I have some aversion towards it and men in general. The experience has left me traumatized and developed trust issues. I'm also currently dealing with depression and anxiety. I feel suicidal and I don't know what to do.
P.S: He said most men would have cheated on their SOs without telling them about this.