31m 40f life

I messed up 3 sent a d pick to my fiance she is in hospital never sent1 b4 ever thoght it might get her mind off what she going though rn f40 I am m31 been to gather about 6yrs have beautiful daughter 2gather but any way she did not like it snaped on me such a bad idea her white bloodcells cit low so she got a room by herself anask she said no1 was in there I anit seen her 4 just about 2weeks now miss her an 4 the 2 weeks maybe 4times away she texts me I love u I get it she hurt stuck in there idk SHIT what I get 4 trying something new o0o an 4 the past yr we been pretty distant sex maybe 1 every 2moths but we got in an argument an we both said shit we need 2 say an we working on it an slowy geting us back an our intimacy 4 one another back sooo it's getting better