For context, I started a new job two months ago and my boss is attractive but I would never do anything because he has a family and I have a boyfriend who I really love. My (26F) sex drive has been so high this week so I decided to masturbate, and as I came for some reason my boss overshadowed thoughts of my boyfriend. I also, like whispered the first syllable of my boss’ name absentmindedly until I realized wtf just happened and shut up.
Immediately after I felt so ashamed and my stomach feels like it’s in knots. I don’t want to be a cheater and I would genuinely never cheat irl and put my bf in that position, but I’m just so stressed that I thought of my boss as I came.
I guess I was just asking if it’s normal for things like this to happen, or if it’s happened to others but they are still fine with their partner?