Hi all,
So, I'm in a bit of a rut that sounds so crazy. Sometimes I can't put it together in my head.
I'm 22, a paleontology student and until a short while ago I've never been with a woman until I would meet someone who would turn my life dynamic upside down.
I'm gonna give a little backstory, to help get an understanding of things now. Strap in, it's a long one.
About a few weeks ago, I met a significantly older woman, (33F) (let's call her Jenny) who looked like she can be my age, a little taller than me. I was quite literally minding my own and she picked me outta the crowd. Talked to me. I didn't know what to do, because I still have yet to get used to striking up conversations with women. But I was flattered.
I learned that she's Polish, never married. One night, I learned she had friends in my part of town. I was the youngest there. She then literally said slightly tipsy "I like Tommy" during a game night thing on a beach. I just thought she was playing a joke. But then I noticed her looking at me throughout the night, extended eye contact with some form of intent, and holding my hand as we walked.
I was thinking: "oh well she's just drunk let her have her fun". Later we finished at the designated driver's house. Where everyone kinda passed out. And it was just us two awake at about 3am. With the alcohol I've had, my inhibitions were lowered but not fully. We were lying in bed, then she touches my faces gently and I just fall apart and we started kissing.
From there we continued hanging out with the group but also met up in secret and more often than not fooled around. We agreed that this is a no strings attached thing.
Sometimes, Jenny would also sneak a kiss or two when the group had their back turned, lean on my shoulder, caress my leg when sitting at group dinners, secretly hold my hand among other things.
One day, after all seeing a movie, One of her friends who we'll call "Rachel" pointed out saying "have you guys noticed that Jenny follows Tommy around like everywhere, and she stands like super close to him". Jenny and I looked at each other. Jenny's face turned bright red. I said nothing. But I think maybe only Rachel might know but the others haven't mentioned it.
Last night we shared a dance and dinner at a seafood and jazz bar. I dressed up a little and Jenny was wearing the most colorful dress that I've ever seen. Her hair, eyes, all of her best features were amplified.
Today, we went for brunch then a walk on the pier, then she says "Tommy I'm eleven years older than you, but I think I, falling for you". I was speechless. And having never been with a woman much less an older woman, I truly didn't know how to handle this. I just shut down from shock. Jenny hasn't been the same, and I feel like I was going crazy already.
I admit, I think I'm growing closer to Jenny, but I don't wanna ruin a dynamic that's fun and adventurous. I don't know the first thing about dating, love or what I feel right now. Jenny has called and I haven't answered since I just woke up because last night lasted awhile.
Can anyone please help me navigate my feelings? Maybe what to say to Jenny? Apologies for typos I'm using an old tablet.
Cheers.