My(29F) partner(29M) recently told me something that I just can't seem to process. I understand that part of it comes from a place of insecurity and fear, and the other part is from me being only in monogamous relationships.
I was talking to my partner one night and the conversation he had at work popped up about the strangest sex situations they've been in. He works in a very male dominated job so the conversations weren't really unsurprising to me. I asked what his were thinking that it'll be something like being tangled in a pretzel shape or something funny like that. Boy was I wrong. He told me he'd engaged in a fivesome before followed by all the other -somes he has while in his teenage years.
At first I wasn't bothered at all and thought it was interesting but after some time the insecurities came in and now I just can't get it out of my head.
Will he be satisfied with me? Will he have those wants and needs one day and I'm not willing to partake and it ruins what we have. Those are just some of the things I've been thinking of. I don't really know what to make of what he told me and am struggling to process it all.
I think I'm hurt just because I can't ever picture him with someone like that and so many people too. I just feel so insecure which I'm usually not around sex.
I guess I know it's my own issues but I just don't know what to do with how I feel and am thinking right now.
Any help or suggestions would be great. I know the best thing to do is accept which I do, I mean it happened so long ago but it's the thought of it all that just makes me so sad and insecure. I actually just don't know what to do with it and how to correctly process what I've been told.
I guess my question is, what should I do with this information and how should I deal with it?