I (26f) was dating him for a year. I have a lot of unresolved trauma that makes me insecure and feel unlovable. Because of this I continually pushed him away when all he was doing was trying to love me. He treated me so well, loved me so much, took care of me and I didn’t appreciate it. I never did anything nice for him, took his love for granted and expected him to pay for everything. I even downloaded a dating app because I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be with him.
I never thought he would leave but he finally did. He told me he doesn’t feel the same anymore and he was checked out of the relationship a month ago. I now realise I love him so much and don’t want to lose him. I want to try and work on myself and my resolve my trauma to be with him. I’m not sure if he even loves me anymore but I want him back. Is this relationship salvageable? Is so, how do I make it work again?
Tl:dr Pushed im away and didn’t appreciate him. Now he’s gone I regret everything and want him back. How can I resolve things?