As an introverted person, i (27 F) have always struggled with forming and maintaining friendships.
My one and only close friend was a controlling covert narcissist who was completely obsessed with me and threatened to kill herself if i ever leave her.
She threw fits whenever i was hanging out with someone else and wanted to be involved in every relationship i ever had.
I finally broke it off 2 years ago, but i've been feeling more and more lonely recently. I have 3 people i consider good friends, and my boyfriend is the sweetest even though he's talking about software or videogames 99 percent of the time.
I'm not that close to any of my friends though. We're all grown ups doing our own thing, and i don't think i'm anybody's best friend (except for my boyfriend i guess).
gradschool takes up all my time, I don't have much time to go out and hangout with people anymore.
I really miss having a close girl friend though. Someone i can connect with and maybe do girly things together once in a while.
I can only talk about Linux distros and software related stuff so much before starting to lose my mind :))
What should i even do? I don't think i'll ever have a best friend again.
I'm simply too late.
Everyone has already formed their own social circle at this age. I wish i was a bit more extroverted in highschool or during my bachelor's.