Afraid to be akward and cringe

I find a lot of things akward and cringy, so I’m always in stress of making myself a walking clown, dropping something, going in the wrong direction, saying something inappropriate, some of my friends look like they couldn’t care less what people think of em, is it normal or am I a certified sociopath? (Also I find it very hard keeping a cool convo with strangers or in conflict situations I’m unable to stand my ground and keep the composure, is it okay?)