I just don't get it but I do at the same time. He's an avoidant who feels all relationships are doomed to end tragically due to past relationships and general past trama. Yet another man that needs therapy.
I just don't get why I was chosen. This man one the sweetest, goofiest, hottest, coolest guy I know. He so amazing in a lot of ways, get tons a compliments, and gets hit on all the time. He could have a number of women. Yet, he chooses me and continues to. He only wants to/ is seeing me. He drive 3+ hours every weekend just to see me, admits to missing me all the time, cares about me, checks on me, and listens to me. Not to say I'm not amazing in my own right and I definitely seen just as desirable by people and yeah the sex is amazing but I don't think anyone's driving 3+ hours just for sex, not mention also paying for dates and small gifts here and there.
I just feel like if he wanted something casual
He would've kept it casual. No emotional intimacy, no plans for the future, no admitting feelings, not being there for me. Maybe I was a safe option? I at most just hinted at a relationship because they had never been my thing and I wasn't sure what I wanted in the beginning so I do take accountability for that. However, I do feel like he should've said a relationships wasn't for him. Why did he have to involve me if he knew he wanted to be alone?
It's obvious we should part but I don't feel ready to just yet. Whether I do it now or later, I'm gonna feel hurt and it's gonna be hard.