Monday last week I (25F) got matched on a dating app with a man (27M), he was awesome handsome etc. and everything and he said he's coming for weekend to my city i said nice etc. well i was amazed by his personality overall and we agreed to meet each other at friday so yeah it was SO AWESOME meeting we went to restaurant and drank some beers and decided to see each other next day, we also kissed for goodbye.
Next day [saturday] was also nice, we met at like 2 pm, went to the beach of the river in the city, hugged and cuddled there too [shirtless], kissed, it was so nice, i felt so adored. You should add – i am chubby woman and he was a very handsome tall man i was amazed someone like this would like me really. My self-esteem pretty much skyrocketed this day and I've been in heaven.
THEN AT SOME POINT he started to hesitate when I started to scratch his back a little bit with my nails, he then ordered me to stop it because it was arousing him and he started… feeling bad and conflicted BECAUSE HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND AND HIM CUDDLING AND SEEING with me WAS ALREADY EMOTIONAL CHEATING [yes it was…].
I am devastated now and my self esteem is ruined. He told me that he's going through a relationship crisis now and he cannot date me/meet me anymore and I am very sad that he didn't tell me that in the very beginnig. I started to be really attracted and i think i even caught some feelings to him but I know I shouldn't keep any form of contact with him.
Any advice?