Case: Asperger’s Syndrome.
I lost my longest friend of five years, and girlfriend of year-point-eight. Lost about 5/6th of my friends too. This was… I suppose nine months ago. I’ve grieved my losses and hoped she could live happier than when I was with her.
I’ve always had a hard time with my own emotions, but I had never felt so alone, my memories feel like jabbing thorns on a delicate rose. On better days I reminisce fondly on the love we’ve had to newfound friends. On bad days, I find myself apologizing in almost a prayer-like solemnity for having been her boyfriend and perhaps making her life miserable.
I really did love her with all my heart so to speak. And I had never experienced love like that. I’m afraid I won’t ever be able to again.
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Are you doing anything to move on from her?
You probably will never find a love like that. That love is gone. If theres other love itll be a different love, maybe similar but never the same.
Welcome to club of lost souls, I too am lost. I too, have memories the same degree.
The birds have chirped together in the courtyard where I am in a facility. Its almost like a chant of easing the worries of all the people here. Small things, I assume.
You are brave to let go in love. I seem to endlessly ruminate and my mind wont let go, maybe its because ive lost everything along with someone who I believed love me but never did and betrayed to no end.
I cry, for the world. I shed tears of all of this pain we face. If only we could cure emotional pain. A wish
Cherish these newfound friends. They mean something
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