Me(18F) and my boyfriend(18M) have been together for 11 months as of yesterday(July 1st, 2024). I'm coming to Reddit because I don't have any friends to talk to about this to get an opinion about it. Basically at the beginning of our relationship we had a conversation about porn, and how I wasn't ok with him watching it. Around April of this year I found out he had still been watching and even bought this stuff(Any platform you can think of, he had it) and he had been lying to my face about it anytime I asked him for reassurance. I also found out he had been on Omegle flashing people and adding them on Snapchat asking for things. Keep in mind during this whole time we have been pretty sexually active. When I found out about everything he swore that he wouldn't do any of that stuff anymore because he didn't want to lose me. As of now(as far as I know) he has been clean. Honestly I am debating on what to do, because I don't really trust him anymore and with some of the stuff he was searching I don't feel like he can be around any minorities without having some thought of that sort. I really do want to get over it because it was already addressed and fixed but I just can't. It's like it haunts me in a way. I will be honest, it has also been the reason for some of my controlling actions(screen time, account access, etc), but I don't want to have to do that for the rest of my life because, who am I, his mom? Either way, I don't know if this is just one of those 'rough patches' that are in relationships, and something that can be overcome. I'm just so tired of having to deal with the repercussions of his actions physically and emotionally, its exhausting.
Tl;dr I don't know what to do about my relationship anymore.