I feel like I often miss the mark. I can’t make friends at all and I feel like no ever really likes me. I’m already 29 years old f and have a career but I’m always getting in trouble with other ppl. Like I don’t want to at all. I feel like I can’t be at peace because somehow someway I’ll ruin it by speaking. I work a few jobs and because I come off as passive another nurse wanted to force more work on me. I had to stand my ground and by refusing the work it catapulted into drama. Him saying that no one likes me, my attitude is ugly ect. Basically what everyone says my entire life.
I hear it often and so many times I try to fix it. I try to smile. To be kind but somehow I just am not doing it enough OR IM TOLD I have no personality.
Fast forward I’m at a new position (because my personality I feel like I can’t hold a job so I job hop a lot or only work a few hours between 2-4 jobs)
And it starts off great but somehow it fizzles out. I try to ask if anyone needs help. If there is anything I can do and am always told no. It’s okay. Everyone goes to lunch together and they invited me once. Never invited me again. I answer all their questions. I say yes ma’am. Of course. What can I help you with.
I really honestly don’t know what to do or change. It’s heart breaking. How do I continue on in a world where no one likes me?