I am in a friend group of three, and over the past few weeks I've been trying to figure out what makes me feel so weird or off when I'm with them. When we hangout, I kind of just sit inside my head and keep my thoughts to myself, and basically only speak when I'm spoken to. I sort of just tune out, and view the time I'm supposedly spending with my bestfriends from the outside, like how you would listen to family having a conversation, then they mention you for a second, but you aren't really taking part in it??
I don't know if that metaphor makes any sense, but the gist is, why do I do this? At first I thought I just didn't feel like I could be myself around them, but then I realized that I could and I just don't want to maybe? And why not?? SOMEONE HELP MEEEEE