I've been having sex for about 2 years. It hurt extremely terribly (scale 10 out of 10 with only one pinky finger going in – no PIV sex) from day 1 and could not get PIV penetration for a long long while (a whole year). I figured out I have a condition making it hurt [vaginismus] and started using dilators. I reached the biggest size dilator and now can have PIV sex, but only in positions where I am not using my legs/but muscles. My question is : will it ever stop hurting?
It hurts a lot when I have sex, so much that I cry out in pain and can't help it even though I cover my mouth with a pillow so my partner will enjoy it still and not worry about me. :/
I do not have good insurance, so my doctor told me anything to treat the condition will not be covered. I cannot afford treatment from the doctor.
My problem is, I like sex and want to enjoy actual PIV sex, but the pain is starting to wear on me and I find that I now am starting to avoid sex more actively, whereas before I used to desire it and search it out actively.
Is there anything anyone might have to say that will be helpful advice?