We've been in a relationship for 7 months now and I've had this problem a lot. I get too dependant on him when I'm on my period and expect him to be there for me.
I get extreme mood swings and bad cramps. He sometimes tries to be there but our time differences don't really help much. I'm bad at communicating when I'm having mood swings as well. I'll tell him that I'm on my period and am not feeling nice but when asked to elaborate, I wouldn't be able to do that and instead, will start shutting down and being distant. I don't blame him for not knowing when I'm feeling a certain way when im not actually saying anything.
For example, today we were supposed to play a video game together and it was supposed to be our date night. He stayed up late so that we could do that. I told him we couldn't play at the moment but could later on. He was waiting for a couple hours. Meanwhile, I started feeling horrible and kept crying the whole time. Didn't communicate this with him though. Later on, when it was actually time to play, I realised that I hadn't downloaded the game and it was taking a lot of time. I kept apologising for wasting his time because it didn't feel good at all. I don't know why but he thought that he had done something wrong and he got pretty sad and started apologising as well. This in turn, made me feel worse. I told him I couldn't take care of his feelings atm when I was feeling pretty crappy myself.
I just want to feel okay and not like trash. I don't want to depend on him to make me feel good because that's not how it should be. And I also don't want to make him feel upset. What can I do to feel better and less emotional without him?
Thank you.