TMI warning!! This does go into detail about my intimacy life so it is gonna be a little personal.
So my boyfriend and I have been together for the past 5 years, cute boy in my freshman year classes and eventually that escalated. We’re since then graduated and we just moved in together. Quite literally everything about my boyfriend is perfect; he treats me like a princess and is such a genuine guy who seriously cares about me and I can tell. However, I don’t feel like I’m sexually satisfied in this relationship. Over the course of our relationship, I’ve not been able to finish during sex except for ONCE. He has tried everything except eating me out because I simply just don’t feel comfortable with that – however I don’t know if there’s any solution because I’m starting to think it’s just something wrong with me. I’m concerned because I’m able to finish on my own, and the sex does feel great so I’m not sure why I’m incapable of finishing.
Admittedly I’ve also lied and said I did finish in order to boost his ego a little. So now that I really want to make some changes, I feel like shit that I didn’t tell him in the first place that something was wrong and I’m honestly just embarrassed to tell him because I don’t know if there’s anything I can really do about it?
PLEASE put in your two cents as I’m at a complete loss right now and want to make a change before we continue our relationship.
EDIT: I spoke to my boyfriend following most comments telling me I should at least try to get eaten out. He pretty much told me no and it’s “not something he’s into.” Now my feelings are hurt because I feel like I do everything for him and I’m asking one thing of him.
EDIT 2: After a little talk about why this made me feel so insecure, he told me he’s really just nervous because he’s scared it’ll change my opinion on him if I don’t like how he does it. Thanks to everyone who pretty much told me to just face my fears and all the private messages I got! Hopefully things will go better from here and I’ll try to keep you posted 😁😁
TLDR: I’m not able to finish during sex with my boyfriend and I’m looking for some kind of advice how to go about telling him/some changes to make.