Summer's come around and I (19M) have been thinking about my social life a lot, more specifically – my romantic life, or the absence of one.
I made this account around this time last year, and while I've had my first kiss since then (a shortlived fling), and also had some sexual contact (limited to me f#ngering that same shortlived fling), I've still not passed that giant, elusive mountain of virginity. I haven't even gotten past the hump that is seeing yourself as someone that is sexually desirable (since that shortlived fling didn't even touch me sexually in any way, and my only sexual experience is me pleasuring somebody else).
Needless to say, I'm beyond devastated that I'll be entering university this year, and I'm still carrying a burden I've worked so hard to get past in this last year.
I know I have flaws, but so does everybody else I know, and it hasn't stopped them from finding casual sex or a relationship that lead to sex.
This leads me to my main question, and the reason I made this post.
It's well estabilished that lack of confidence, shyness, and desperation are unattractive qualities.
Apart from my physical faults like my body and my face, I believe I have a deadly mix of the above, as well.
How am I supposed to be confident in myself as a man, as a partner and most of all, someone seen as "fuckable", when I lack the experience of nearly everyone I've ever met?
How am I supposed to not be shy when I'm surrounded by people who are, as the past has shown, *obviously* better, hotter, and overall more attractive to women?
How am I supposed to not be desperate, when I'm at the height of my hormones telling me I *need* sex, and I've never even gotten close to feeding that hunger?