Is it okay whenever she’s not feeling well she always spends time with me to cheer her up but when shes okay she have something to do and she becomes busy

Is it okay? Because i feel like its kinda unfair because whenever shes feeling down im there for her but when im not okay she's busy and i have to deal with myself, she say she love me and shes just bad st expressing her feelings for me and im gaslighting myself to believe it. Is it really okay?