My partner (40m) and I (39f) have been together for nearly 10yrs. We have no problems in our relationship. We agree on just about everything and what we don't agree on, we repectfully agree to disagree. We're a great team. We're raising three children together and just being run down by the end of the day is the only reason we don't have sex as often. Neither of us are bothered by it because we both feel the same. We've both said we want to, but we're also just tired and want some time to do absolutely nothing before having to go to bed. With that said we have great sex when we do.
However, just recently when we do have sex, the idea or him seeing me as sexually attractive gives me the ick. I'm not a sexy person. I'm funny, awkward, and modest. I could never do boudoir pictures because I would feel SOOO awkward and would be way too silly. I've never been comfortable with trying to actually be sexy but that has never seeped into my sex life. I'm in there and having a good time. I'm not putting on a show.
I'm not sure where this is coming from. Is it because we have been going through a dry spell? It's not like it's our first. Am I subconsciously not attracted to my partner anymore? Is it me? In the beginning I was insecure about my body, and even though I am still a modest person, I have confidence in my body now. I don't like this and I don't want it to lead to being grossed out by sex altogether. Had anyone experienced this or have an idea of where this might be coming from?