I (21f) have a very weird kink (not sure if it’s even that) and I have no idea why, I also feel disgusted by it the second I’m not horny.
Whenever I’m horny, I find myself fantasising about getting fucked by a pervert. I don’t even know how to explain what I mean by someone who’s a pervert. But It’s usually men who I’d never go for in real life, and a lot of these fantasies are about these perverts dominating me and using my body.
I already know I am a sub irl and I have had a bdsm dynamic with most of my partners, but the men I fantasise about fucking are men I would never ever actually fuck irl.
I don’t think this is normal, I also hate it so much and I feel so disgusting every time and I don’t know what to do, how can I stop this fantasy. It’s getting to a point where I can’t orgasm most of the time unless I’m thinking about this.
I didn’t explain this very well but I hope it makes sense. I also apologise if this comes off as a bit mean.
Also this isn’t an invitation for perverts to actually massage me