Hi hi, so for a bit of background I am confirmed on the spectrum and mostly socialize in online spaces, so this is an online-specific issue I'm having:
I feel like strangers aren't giving me enough of a chance, and it's very isolating. I already have to be very careful about the memes I send to make sure they don't offend people. I usually stay quiet to gauge what I'm dealing with, but I get the sense people dislike me.
I don't understand a lot of social norms, and I know lately the older my friend groups get the less patience they're going to have. But, for specific context since I've been vague, I was in a really bad spot mentally, got in a voice call and asked strangers for a small amount of money. This royally pissed them off to the point of I needed to be kicked from the group – I didn't understand why exactly this is bad, other than the whole 'being seen as a bank account' thing. It's been 5 months since then, and they still don't want me back in. I begged the lead to tell me if there was anything else that was off about me he insisted that it was a no.
The person who gave me the money also cut me off because he said something like, "I dislike seeing people struggle."
A lot of people that I talk to at length, have eventually just cut me off without warning and I don't get what I'm doing that's so offputting, genuinely?