She’s always been my wife, from the moment I met her I loved her. I fought for a forever with her. With her gone its not easy to breathe, I just can’t seem to catch my breath. I’ll always miss her, our pups, our home. I can block the pain out most of the time but it weighs on me, it hangs over me like a thunderclap. The ordeal is eating away at me, chipping away at the walls I’ve built. Hearing her voice didn’t help but its not as if I ever stopped loving her, as if I even could. 10 years is a long time and somehow not close to enough time. I broke down and prayed for the first time asking G-d to bring her back to me, to make us whole again. 😞
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Did she pass away?
I’m sorry to hear it mate. I’m not sure what advice you’re looking for though, maybe if we knew the background for you two parting ways, it could give us an idea. Anyway, best thoughts from me to you, may you find easier roads ahead.
Why sensor God? Why would He help you if you are ashamed of Him especially on an anon forum?
Did she leave or pass away?
This would be a good issue to take to a counselor. Good luck.