So we've been dating for a little a year now, she lives in Russia & I live in the US. I've (28M) been unemployed since the start of the year, but my girlfriend (24F) has always done sex work (fansly & camming) for a couple years. And I support her. It doesn't bug me of what she does because I've always had my trust in her. We have an genuinely close connection & honestly out of all my relationships growing up, this has been the best connection I've ever had with someone.
I don't know if it's wrong of me. But I'll moderate for her whenever she cams. I see all the people that come in, remove the really disgusting people, but i think seeing a live reaction whenever there's a wealthy tipper & she spends her attention, laughing at the dms of that person. While knowing they're really paying for her attention. Deep down it makes me feel really insecure and defeating to be online through it all. With fansly i felt confident because I know she hates that work & us spending time together is her comfort away from that toxic environment of dming hundreds of people to make a living. But also maybe its the pressure of me not having a job, not being able to afford to meet up after a year. I feel that pressure and I'm unsure what to think anymore.
Is this something I need to work on or should I bring this up to her?
TL;DR: I get jealous of my girlfriend's camming work and not sure how to feel.