I and my boyfriend tried to have sex twice, and even after multiple tries we could not get it in. we finally got 1/4th of his length in and it hurt and burnt like CRAZY and i started crying and asked him to take it out and he did. I think I should mention that I have PCOS and my uterus is retroverted. He cuddled me and everything, but later he kind of started ignoring me? he wouldn't even look at me or let me kiss him. He was blatantly ignoring me. What made it worse is that this was our last time meeting before we start LDR. I was in so much pain, I was feeling so insecure and him acting like that made it worse. I get that he was frustrated but this was very hurtful. After some time he tried talking to me and we were okay. Once he got home, smth came up at his house. After it was resolved, I told him I was feeling down, he didn't really do anything about it, since he was down too, and he pulled away from me. I was abysmally low and then I called him after like, 2 hours and I sounded really low, but he didnt even ask me what was up. At last, I told him myself that I was extremely upset and wanted to talk to him and that I had been upset this entire time, I was also running a fever and was sick, and told him about it. He was going on about how sleepy he was before this, so I asked him to sleep and he stayed up for 8 minutes or so and asked me what was wrong and i said ill tell him the next day and then he slept. The next day he didnt text me until 14:00/2pm, to tell me that he was busy, I did not reply and then he called at 4:45pm/16:45; still did not ask how i was doing. After sometime he asked what was up and if it was bc of what had happened the day before yesterday, I said yes. Then I told him everything and he apologised, he said he knew what he was doing and that it's wrong but he couldnt help it and wanted to be alone. Then we were alright, later that night he told me that he had wanked in the mroning since he was in pain. He had the time to wank but not to ask me how I was doing? To check up on me? Considering I had told him I was really down and that I needed him? I asked him this and he got frustrated saying that I keep ruminating on things and why do I have to bring it up when it was already resolved? I asked if he even thought of me when he woke up and did he even know that I was down? He said he knew but he didn't want to talk and he just hoped i'd be fine. This really broke me, this really just looks like he does not care about me at all. I feel like i'm being mistreated and I should leave but that is out of option because I love him way too much for that.
TLDR: Boyfriend and I can't have sex because of my body's complications, he doesn't give me after care or emotional support.