I'm 21f and I have a long distance relationship.
I've seen my boyfriend physically for about 5 months, first for 4 months. Then a month over the last 2 years. I'll see him next in a couple weeks, and I'll be there for 4 months.
Every time we have had sex I couldn't come. I got close once or twice. But nothing pushed me over the edge. I've always been very kinky and ask my boyfriend to use any of my toys. He suggested I took a break from using them so sex would feel better. And I did, but nothing improved.
I'm still so bored! I haven't cum, which is so important to me. Whenever I think about it I just cry. And I feel like my heart is breaking over it. I can't tell if he doesn't understand why I'm so sad. Or whether his ego is hurt.
Sadly I've tried to bring this up before. But it was a bad time. Most recently he has a uti which caused disfunction. Pretty much the day after I spoke to him about it, symptoms started.
I'm anxious to see him again because I'm worried the sex will be boring again. The last time we had sex I cried. I was close but nothing happened. He gave me a hug and said we will figure it out. He mentioned that he will do some more stuff like trying oral on me. Or being less awkward when he fingers me.
We both had some issues with out genitalia. So I'm hoping it will all work out. But it's really affecting me. I feel like it isn't normal to be this upset. But I'm genuinely devastated.
Any advice is welcome… just please be kind if you can?