18m
I started prone masturbation when I was like 9, and only now I know the harmful effects so I've tried abstaining for 5 days now. It's been very hard. I used to masturbate multiple times a day, sometimes upwards of like 7 times.
Prone masturbation was barely ever pleasurable but I was always so horny and couldn't wait. And now because of it I never get hard and feel no pleasure.
I've tried sex toys and stuff but nothing works. I've tried lube but nothing works. I'm getting hard sometimes now that I've stopped masturbation but even then it's only for a couple seconds, and I feel like my dick is slightly smaller now while hard which makes me fucking depressed.
My question is, will it ever get any better? Is there any point in holding out or will it change nothing?