To summarize, I’m not exactly pretty; most of all, vitiligo. I can see the people who look away from me because they think I’ll misunderstand and assume they are staring at me. Then there are the ones who are staring at me. The ones I know think I’m angry from my monotone, mumbling voice. My resting bitch face doesn’t help as well.
This isn’t necessarily an issue of self esteem. I know myself and I can accept myself. It’s more non-self esteem or the comfort of others. From “hey you” sounding like a threat from my voice to a look from me appearing as if I’m giving you a stink eye to people not knowing how to react to a person spotted like a dalmatian. Is it as simple as trial and error and spot people who aren’t uncomfortable around me?