we’ve been together for 6 months. i really love him, he is so sweet and caring and cuddly in all other aspects, but it seems like he hates eating me out. he’s done it a handful of times and only for like 1-2 minutes at a time. i’ve asked him if he doesn’t like doing it but he says he “loves eating me out” and would do it more. he even told me one time that he had a face sitting fetish. this discussion was like 2 months ago and he’s done it once since then, for literally a minute. he got a hair in his mouth and seems grossed out and i apologized but i don’t remember him saying anything to reassure me.
i make sure my labia are shaved or trimmed very short with beard trimmer and i keep a triangle of hair on the mons. i also make sure i shower before i see him to make sure i’m fresh. i have no idea if i just naturally taste bad, i know i don’t drink enough water and don’t eat as healthily as i should (i deal with a restrictive eating disorder), but its kinda bothering me because i feel like he’s not being honest. i really like getting ate and have expressed this to him.
i suck him off a lot, almost every time we have sex. to make matters more complicated, his dick doesn’t smell great 50% of time. it has a pungent, somewhat fishy order that you can sometimes smell when he takes his underwear off and my face isn’t even near his dick. i’ve never said anything about this because i don’t want him to feel insecure, and i don’t really mind that much because after some PIV or a few sucks on his dick the smell is gone. it makes me feel conflicted because i’m willing to deal with some odor because i genuinely really like giving head and making him feel good, but it seems like he isn’t willing to do the same.
he (18m) is my first bf and im (20f) his first gf, and we are both each others first sexual partners. i really do love him and i don’t feel like he is selfish in any other way. i just feel a little down about this because we are compatible in every other way and i would love to get married to him one day. i don’t know if i want to bring this up to him again because i don’t want him to feel pressured. im scared to even post this because other threads i’ve read on this topic the commenters have said that the man was selfish and to breakup, but i really don’t believe that to be true or want to do that.