I don't know how to start a conversation. All my options for talking feel like playing 20 questions. i feel friendships are just for hobbies and no one reaches out on a personal level anymore.
i see no reason to talking and yet my soul yearns for conversation and when i talk i get no connection from others.
i joked too much.
i talked to long.
i didn't talk about something they liked.
if i stay quite im just ignored,
if i text someone its never seen and when i ask they are surprised like they dont use their phone
when i reach out for activities they are never taken seriously.
im basically left to myself because others decide they don't like me and i feel im just "around" then when i try to connect.
i feel like im alone and have no one who wont eventually find me bothersome or just keep me around out of pity or laziness to tell me im not good company.
how am i supposed to interact with people if people dont want to interact with me?