I’m at a loss

just found out my husband of four years has been paying for only fans with our emergency credit card for who knows how long…/: I only found out because of a paper statement. I usually throw them out but decided to actually look this time, so I have no clue how long it’s actually been going on… PayPal payments.. onlyfans payments.. I’m heartbroken. We have a 3 year old and a 1 year old and I’m a sahm 😞 I gave up my life so he could pursue his career and moved halfway across the country where I don’t know any body. Everything fucking hurts. I don’t know where to go from here because I can’t trust him 😭