**TL;DR;**: Dad want to talk to me and I'm scared, how do I prepare myself for it?
He just asked me if we can sit down and have a talk, which I delayed by saying I have a test tomorrow (which I do), can we talk later. I'm half panicking right now, I don't know what he wants to talk about and I'm scared. How can I prepare myself for this and not go into it like a mess? He has sat me down a few times but the fear never fades, I don't know what to do about it.
For context, my relationship with my dad has always been awful. He had temper problems when I was younger and I was quite suicidal for a few years because of him. He has better temper control now but I'm still scared being alone with him, scared that he's going to yell and scold me out of nowhere.