Me and my partner were having sex some time ago. We both enjoy rough sex, he is very dominant and I'm very submissive. However, we have never established a safe Word (i know stupid, but i have to say im pretty inexperienced in the bdsm scene). We also never discussed any non-con fantasies, i only mentioned to him i like a bit of pain. So we are having sex as per usual, i'm getting thrown around. We change positions to doggy style. As he is rather well endowned man, and i'm a small woman it starts to hurt a little bit, then he goes even deeper and faster and i think he starts hitting my cervix. I can barely breathe ať that point and i can't Say anything for a couple of seconds. I'm not really panicking cause it happens sometimes. After a few seconds i say stop. I don't know if he doesnt hear it (some music Is playing in the background and my voice was pretty weak). So i maneuver my legs in such a way he slips out and I get a moment of relief. I don't really say anything, he enters me again immediately and start's being very rough again. It's a bit better, but after sometime the pain gets overwhelming again but I didn't really have energy to verbally protest. So I roll from my stomach, to make him slip out again to get a break. Now Im on my back and he is above me and asks with a smirk if "I can't handle the dick". I nod shyly. He enters me again, its better now cause he doesn't hit my cervix from this position. We continue and everything is fine.
I don't know to feel about this situation, to be honest I'm pretty sure he didn't hear my verbal "stop". Even if he did I must admit that it turned me one how forceful he was and that potentially he ignored my request, which would be a bit fucked up since we never really discussed such fantasies. We didnt really speak about it after we finished, cause i didnt feel the need to bring IT up as i didnt feel threatned, i enjoyed this rough treatment. Only when i got back home and i cooled off a little i started analyzing it and became slightly sacred of his reaction (or really lack of) and my enjoyment of the situation.
So what do you guys think about this? Maybe im overthinking this